Ok, so I am in a new training class for the new job.  All in all it isn’t bad, but the headaches that I have from leaving the class are getting to be annoying.  The instructor is READING to me as if I have an IQ of about 30.  I get so ticked off by dealing with this, that I fuck around and don’t pay attention and then he will call on me, and I am like… UGH!!

So today, on my lunch break, I went to my chiropractor (Thank God for them…. seriously) and got my neck adjusted, as well as my attitude might I add, and came back to be a good little trainee.  Well he started it again.  I mean really… don’t they teach you in trainer education classes or something that you don’t READ to your trainees, as you hope that they can read for themselves?  That you INSTRUCT????  Pet peeve, can ya tell. 

So here I sit on break, ranting about this crap and I still have 2 more hours of this stuff.  Ok readers, keep your fingers crossed that I can contain my obvious sarcasm for the rest of the afternoon.

LMAO – started a new job this week working for THE largest wireless company in America, I will leave you all to determine the name of the company.  It is so far not bad as call center jobs so.  Will log on later tonight and blah some more…. ugh short breaks! 

Well, I think that sums up my 7 months here in this call center hell.  I feel like I have been in hell, what with working 330-1200 and not having a lot of time with my son.  So this new position that I am undertaking will be a great blessing.  I am really excited at this prospect.  The extra pay and extra time with my son and time for a social life is worth the aggravation of changing jobs.  So please wish me luck as I embark on this journey.  I am not nervous per se but I am always a little apprehensive when starting anything new.  But in other areas life is going pretty well.  I have met a great man, and he seems really sweet so we shall see how things progress. 

So anywho, have a great weekend, and I will write more later.

 Ciao!

This is the time of year that I hate.  I love Spring, I love the flowers in bloom, the freshly cut grass, the sinus problems, the allergies, the red puffy eyes.  LOL.  But of all seasons, Spring and Winter are my two most favorite.  However, the act of springing ahead an hour kills me.  The older I get, the worse it gets.  For example, all day Sunday, I sat in church and nodded off, then I sat at my neices “christening” and nodded off, and fell asleep on my son and slept for most of the afternoon.  Monday was the same way, and so was today.  I feel like my grandmother.  LOL

Who was the idiot who came up with this grand idea anyway?

I hate days where I get nothing accomplished, and still feel like complete and totall crap for the rest of the day.  I had to “sit” my grandmother again, and while she was a little better today, I still sat in the chair (arm in extreme pain again) and slept.  When I am in pain like this I sleep.  But you say, don’t you have some medication for the shoulder?  Yes I do, but it makes me so nauseous that I can barely breathe, so I refuse to take it.  So you’re right, I shouldn’t complain.  But when in hell….

I feel like a broken record — I am so tired, blah blah blah lmao.   But what can I say, working in a call center makes your life weird, and your life in a weird plane. 

I really don’t have much more to say today, but please understand, I am glad this journey in this call center hell is almost over.

Waiting has always been difficult for me.  Patience is NOT my strong suit, and when I am waiting on something that I purchased online, I always have a difficult time waiting until I get it.  I harrass the internet looking at the tracking site, harrass the site from where I purchased said items, and then walk the floor waiting for either FedEx or the Postal Service to show up.  So I ordered this jewelry from the internet, and I am excited to get it, as I want to wear it and show it off to a certain “friends” of mine.  But I can’t as I dont”have it yet!!!! ARRGGHHH   I hate waiting!!!  LOL

Anyway I am trying to learn patience, but I am not good at it!  So dear readers, please pray for me as I patiently (yeah right) wait!  LMAO

Today has been a blur.  I didn’t sleep well last night, some medicine that I am on for my shoulder makes me nauseous so I was up all night sick, and then my sister and niece needed a ride to the doctors this morning, so I had to go “sit” my grandmother.  That is real rough with no sleep.  I fell asleep within 15 minutes of my hind end hitting the couch.  I slept from 9am – 115pm and then got up took a shower and am now at work.  My life sucks!  I really need to get different hours, and a different schedule  — WAIT I did… I start a new job in two weeks.  Thanks goodness.  My body is rebelling and not liking the 330-1200 schedule anymore. 

Also on a more personal note, a month ago a friend freaked out on me, and decided that he no longer wanted to be my friend.  I still mourn the loss of that friendship, but understand that he is going through a rough time and am trying to give him some space.  However, I ran across a funny email yesterday, and I sent it to him with a little note stating that I hope he is well and that I still miss talking with him — and I guess today I was hoping for something back from him.  But of course nothing.  I feel stupid for missing a friendship that was new and still in its infancy, but I felt like we clicked.  I am a nerd at heart, and I am a geek by nature.  He is too.  I am older, he is younger, but that didn’t seem to be an issue in regards to our conversations or time hanging out.  I think that he thought that I wanted more from the friendship than I did and he freaked, or he felt like I was pushing for more.  But I wasn’t.  I was just enjoying his company and his friendship.  So anyways, now I sit and think about things that I think are funny that no one else gets, and it makes me miss his humor, and such.  I don’t want him to think that I am stalking him or anything, but maybe it is the carelessness of it all, like my friendship meant so little to him that it was easy to throw away.  I don’t give it to people that easily. 

But I am a survivor, and onwards and upwards as they say.  I just am melancholy at the fact that it was just reinforced today that my gift of friendship meant so little.  Maybe it always did, and that is why I have so few true friends.  I will get over it, and will learn from this experience, but at what cost?  How does it affect your next relationship with other people when someone treats you so callously?  When my ex treated me in this manner, it took years for me to get over it, and in some ways I am not sure that I ever will get over it.  I am still in therapy over my severe distrust and control issues.  I feel like I will never make headway in that area.  And with this fresh insult, it makes me even more scared to try again to really put myself out there, even if just for friendship only.

You know, being depressed is not fun … I wish today was over so I could start from scratch.